Sunday, April 26, 2009

FRUSTRATED

Just a need to purge a bit. I am currently experiencing the same exact horrible feelings I felt back 6 or so years ago that sent me into the dreaded "fog" period of my life. Inside I am screaming, please, no, not again. And while I know I dont want to go about dealing with it the same way as before, I dont know how to move through it gracefully and happily. And now I got baby boy in tow that doesn't need his little happy life tainted by moms issues. Why do we go through times in life where our prayers seem to hit the ceiling and fall back down? That has to be the only explanation. Last time, I just thought I wasn't loved enough to be heard or helped. I know better now, but still I dont know what to do....
And if anyone says I need to pray harder or just be patient, I will personally fly to where ever you are and BEAT the ever-lovin out of you! Cause that is really easy to say when you aren't in the thick of it!

3 comments:

Jenn said...

Em, I don't think you need to pray harder. And its easy to tell someone to be patient, when you're not the one going through crap in your life. So here's my advice. Sometimes, life just plain sucks. And there's nothing that any of us can tell you to make it better, other than to tell you that it will. Know that I love you, and that your family loves you, and you've got one amazing little man that loves you. Its cliche, but remember "To the world, you might just be one person, but to one person (Reed) you might just be the world".

Josie Thompson said...

Em you are AWESOME!!! You are the strongest girl I know...you are so faithful and that will get you through!!!

Jenn said...

oh oh oh, and I found a big burly lumber jack for you tonight. (he's older than you) but active, kind, and totally the out doorsy type. You just need to come up here lady!